mumble

its been a while
since i write something here
i don get what it takes to write lah
i got many to write
but i just stuck
when i'm in front of computer
maybe i just cant fit well with high tech
maybe i'm too lazy


ps: i'm so happy i went back to chan wa camp

Arhggg

I
NEED
TIME
FOR
MYSELF

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this quite sums up what i think this few days.

i tell myself

big boy ady
got fur got wing ady
but don forget to go back where u belong
n don forget what u wanna be since small

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happy birthday to me yesterday

Angels n Demons

it all goes to the same old ancient question everytime
should i listen to my sense n logic?
or my heart n feeling?
this two angels n demon keep on flying around my head
one say: go there go there
one say: go here go here
few days ago i command myself to listen to my feelings please
but i keep on think with logic
n i got my responsible
n i don wanna be said to be like HER
i need to go but i don feel like going
last time i don have even the slightest of this dilemma
last time i will go with 120% of confidence
y this time i cant?
arhhhhh.......
help me please.....



p/s: late bufday wish for mei teen, soli ah...

after life

after my memorable 22 sep
i was so emotional
anything can make me touched
or angry
i cant be happy even for 10 minutes
buthen friday is a very happy day right?
i don afraid to say it here what i done
that day i ponteng utmbf meeting
to go to big speaker to sing k
then even go n eat fried durian
(which is superbly terribly delicious)
n was late for e tech quiz
but i'm so happy
n night i ponteng utmbf dharma class
to go to watch debate mock competition
hahaha
so fun


eh
thay guan
u need to ponteng sometimes lah
don make urself too stress
follow ur feelings
please lah

A day i will need to remember forever

22 Sep 2010
this is the day which i must remember until i go to work or even get old

its quite memorable

but its not about the day

its quite tiring

but its not about the task i did all day long

its quite angry

but its not about the ppl i met

its quite pain

but its not about the things happen

its quite sad

but its not about the event i forced to miss

its quite shocking

but its not about what happen at last

its about the feeling i had
FEELING
FEELING
FEELING
FEELING
FEELING
FEELING
FEELING

i'm not crazy enuf

the thing is like this
i always tot that i m a very crazy person
i tot that i can play with no any worries
buthen today i really suck loh
we r all very siok speaking malay
then go to eat also same
then when pay they say
jom tengok apa dia akan cakap kalao lu tanya dia malayu
okay
buthen when she really come
she put down n say with too small volume only me with such good hearing can hear
san kuai ban
berapa ah?
san kuai ban
oh...

then habis
i should have just act like i langsung dono bm
but i suk ady...
haih...
banyak bagus ketawa oh?
haha

this is in a mal/sing movie
just for fun :
when the phone ring
"green, green..."
i pink up the phone n say
"yellow?
blue is this?
if u purplely call me for fun,
i will not call u black."

Middle man

i hate to be the middle man, seriously!!
i hate to be the middle man, seriously!!
i hate to be the middle man, seriously!!
i hate to be the middle man, seriously!!

y i have to say this 4 times?
becuz i'm the middle man for 4 sides!
i need to listen to all of them
i need to cope with all their problem
i need to satisfy all their desire

ok
all i need now is just find a way to let them talk to each other without me
then all problem will be no problem
buthen how m i going to let them talk??
stupid stupid stupid stupid !!!!

80%完美的日子

我捕捉 精彩的画面 可是一闭上眼 顏色就褪掉了

我穿上 最舒适的t恤 可是一脱下来 身体都僵硬了

我选择 我最想要的 可是一个人了 反而笑开了

我丢弃 对我最好的 可是一关上灯 全部都回来了

直到有一天 我彻底昏睡了

我太累了 我放开了

直到有一天 我失去了

太狼狈了 眼泪掉下来了

太矛盾了 眼泪掉下来了

我想我现在正在过着的就是80%完美的日子。我前晚谈了很久，我现在的生活的的确确实我想要的。我去的活动我做的东西我享受的时候，都是我向往的。但是往往当我回到房间我就觉得为什么我要 这样？我追寻我要求我选择我放起，但是我好累好累。我没有够时间给其他东西了，我要放开，但是什么时候呢？太狼狈了，太矛盾了 ，我彻底昏睡了。。。

Y i came back so early

its a good question
i came back to this miserable place on thursday.
i tot i can start to do my things, but apparently i dono how to start.
so i dono y i wanna come back at the begining
however since my arrival
i join debate discussion for >>22 hours in 4 days!!!(this is crazy)
buthen i think next week i will also be veryry busy loh..
i need to settle things for UIA competition,
then training training training for it
which will take for many nights>.<
u know, busy is not smth i scared of.
but no time for my own life.
u see most of what i busy is for club
i need time for myself!!!
arghhh!!!!!


This is what i gonna do/join/prepare these few weeks:
UtmBF ZhongQiu | 29 Sep 2010 | utm
UIA Karate Open Tournament 2010 | 2,3 Oct 2010 | Gombak
Utm ZhongQiu | 2,3 Oct 2010 | utm
ZhongHuaBei Chinese Debate | 8,9,10 Oct 2010 | NanFang College JB
SheQu | GongWeiHuiYi | 8,9,10 Oct 2010 | somewhere KL
UTM Karate Referee Seminar | 10 Oct 2010 | utm

n i forgot about my upcoming test n assignment.
so much lah!!
haha







p/s: but i still love to live my life as mine now...

Starting

what i wanna say is, i finish designing my blog(finally).
n i'll try to write smth here as much as i can.
ok?
i'll have my ups n ups here.
(cuz i don have down)
n i'll write about my life here,
things i like n hate.
n then there's one more thing.
i'm so hungry now lah.
who can help me...